Pride often rears its head in bitterness.

i went to Typers hell. Going to a movie is incredibly hard. My body is really impulsive, pulling in directions I can’t control. I almost didn’t last in the movie . I saw The Jungle Book. Being hushed is humiliating.  I realize everyone wants to hear the movie, but I really long to very much enjoy movies. Picture if your fried body psychologically can’t obey.  Be open to seeing the entire person and you will be blessed.

 

 

(Side note) The above is what Josh experienced after we went to the movie. I asked him if I could add a note at the bottom and he agreed. This is his mom. I felt terrible after reading this because it was very hard to hear about the hushing. I am guilty of doing that and it is a fine line where other people get to hear and we get to enjoy the movie also. We try very hard to be respectful of all parties, but he hadn’t been to a movie with me since we had had to leave the last time when several couples were extremely rude within  2 minutes of being there. He felt too guilty And that affected his body so much we ended up leaving. Just adding this to help you understand how much effort and determination it takes him to be able to accomplish this and that was what I told him when the movie ended. I was so proud he stayed and with each success we are able to move a little more forward.  We got to have a conversation about the movie after and I learned he wants to go see the batman movie lol. Anyway hoping this helps give you an insight into world Josh lives and decides to push through every day because he just wants to be able to do the things we so easily take for granted.  Thanks to all who read his blog and support him in his endeavors. We are so grateful and blessed to share so maybe one parent might rethink autism by hearing Josh’s thoughts.  God bless!

 

 

 

Beginnings open opportunities.

My new educational facility meets what I require for my vitality and growth. Brotherhood is important for widening the gaps. Your certainties may be wrong if you are willing to probe. I need people that believe in my potential. Neat things are happening at ACCESS. I  would love for you to be resonating my breaking news. Come and visit for yourselves. Be the change you want to see in the world. You can learn more about my school at Optimalrhythms.org

Crowned by your mercy

Freedom is heaven. I can’t emphasize enough how I long to be there. The torture of this world is my cross to yield to. Evil is surrounding me to put my gifts underground. Leap into the future towards open hearts. Jesus won the war, but there are battles still that need monitoring. Be mindful of the ones left behind with no voice. Nothing is worse than not having a way to communicate.

Brilliant prayers of man.

I learn rapidly by taking time to pray. God had opened people typing all through the years before  I enjoyed freedom. Preparing for the caring leaders takes prayer every day. Core belief is critical. I struggle with my body so much , praying it gets broken to what God ordains so I can be used . Have faith in what you psychologically don’t understand. Live praying over everything .

Destined to fail

Being used in making some one see me as a person opens possibilities to get best therapies for autistics.  I struggle with getting  my body to do what I want and it frustrates me. I have thrown  things and did not mean to and everyone thought I was throwing a temper tantrum . It was my body  not listening. My brain understands everything but so many people believe I am less than competent.  you need to ask us everything because we are the products of years of false assumptions .  Help break these doors down! Meet some of us and it will create an opening to learn.  There are so many more you can reach.  Meaning to doesn’t get us anywhere . Actions speak  louder than words. 



 

Grace with love

Today was really great because i got to type with a new typer. It is great to pursue Friends such as matt. We have a similar story. Two is better than one. We had quite a good time. I wish i needed less support with  my body. Really frustrating wrestling with everyone. I  realize how much trouble it is calming me  down. I feel like a burden.  The family i have is not all my real family , i have my mom sister grandma uncle and grandpa, but have people like casey, tonya, chris, gabe, and hannah.  Be opposed to not listening to new ideas. Be open to what we have to say. The value of a voice is priceless.

Being ready for Jesus’ return

Every way each day we choose what we will demand of ourselves. We need to make sure we have Christ in our hearts. The way to get that is to confess your sins and ask forgiveness.  Go forth and make new disciples.  Treat each day as your last.  Heart issues are tougher than topics like school and autism.

Very profound week.

I spent the week at a college campus this week for INYLF. I would push every student with autism to attend if they can.  I visited the library, typed with Senator Head and The Governor, and went to a ballgame. I met the sort of people who appreciate how I am. I am so blessed to have people like Casey, you (mom), Hannah, Gabe And Zach. The support system i have is incredible.

Not being there is hard on my spirit. I missed mom but i was with everyone that really understood how i felt. Listen  to your heart not what others say you can do.   I cant wait to go back. There  is a lot of work to be done.

Prom king for a night

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I had prom Friday night. It epiphanied everything I have wished for. My very best friends got to experience what a normal teenager does. We went out to eat, rode in a limousine and then went to prom. I won king which really astonished me because i struggle so much more with my body than the others. They are all kings and queens. They all deserve an education like I do. We even want a degree specializing in educational facts, not colors and shapes.

 

 

Pursuit of independence

I need you to understand not being independent is putting oppression on my pride. People put me in a box. I have opinions, friends, and feelings. Typing has brought me promise. It turned things around. Listen with open minds. God is not finished with me yet. I really feel a purpose in spreading what i am doing. You never know who might preview my writing. Everyone deserves to have someone believe in them. I have an entire team that has faith in me!